Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You think you’ve run out of options, but you haven’t. Living is an option, choosing to live should be the only option. You think you can’t do this anymore but you can and you will. You will get through this, you will get to the other side of this darkness if you fight. Don’t you want to see yourself overcome this? Don’t you want to see yourself recover? Don’t you want to see how life will be when you can smile for real and mean it for a change? There is so much out there to live for that you haven’t even come close to discovering. You don’t think you’re worth saving, you think you’re worthless, useless, unlovable, ugly and fat. Don’t you see that these are just your thoughts and yours alone. Your thoughts are misguided. You are the only one who thinks these things about yourself and just because you think them it doesn’t make them even remotely true. You are worth everything, trust me. I know that no amount of positive words from another person are going to help you unless you truly want to help yourself. you’re the only one who can make you feel better. Don’t let the bad things take away your ability to experience all the beauty the world has to offer.I believe in you. I have faith in you. Some days you will have a bad day and the urges will get the best of you. That doesn’t mean you’ve failed. You pick yourself back up again and again and you keep trying. You only fail when you’ve given up. Don’t you dare kill yourself. You don’t realize it or even believe it but there are people in this world that are glad you are alive. I know this because I am one of them.
You’re are sick of hearing the ”It gets better” speech because you think you know it won’t get better, you think you’re not as strong as those other people who recovered from self harm, eating disorders and other mental problems, you think they didn’t have it as bad as you, you think they don’t understand what you’re going through. You’re wrong. These people who have recovered felt exactly how you feel now, they’ve been where you are, they didn’t know how strong they were until being strong was the only choice left. They overcame their demons, you can to.
You could read a hundred speeches about how it gets better but they’re not going to automatically fix you. It’s not enough. You and only you have the power to fight your problems. You need to face them and fight it. You need to be stronger than you ever thought possible. You are the only one who can overcome this, no one else can do it for you. People aren’t telling you it gets better just for the sake of saying it. They tell you it gets better because time and time again it has been proven. If you want to get better and I mean really want to, you have to work at it, every damn day. You can’t just say you want things to change and do nothing about it because nothing will change. You can’t keep hiding behind your lies and excuses. You need to admit your problems to yourself and begin to recover. You need to realize that can’t fix the problems you have inside by harming your outsides.
Each time you cut or starve or over eat, it makes you feel better for that one moment, but when the moment is over your world feels like it’s crashing around you. Even though you feel horrible after each time, you can’t stop doing this to yourself because it’s an addiction. You are controlled by your urges, but you don’t have to be. You need to take control of your life. You deserve to control your own mind. Don’t let the pain control you.
You have a positive day and realize it’s time to begin recovery. You tell yourself you are through with giving in to your urges, you tell yourself you are done with all of it, you tell yourself you’re taking your life back. What you don’t realize is that recovery is about how you overcome the bad days not just the good. You decided to try recover on your best day and everything seemed possible based on the decisions of a good day, but you didn’t factor in how you will feel on your worst day. Convincing yourself that you need to fight on your bad days is how you recover. Fighting on your worst day when feel that you have no hope, no faith, no reason, nothing to live for, is how you become stronger. Recovery isn’t a one day, or week, or month process. Recovery is a life long battle.
Don’t make yourself miserable by trying to reach this unattainable idea of perfection. It does not exist. Your self worth is not determined by your weight or whether you have a thigh gap, you are worth so much more than ruining your life trying to be perfect. You can’t accept compliments because you feel undeserving of them. You continually analyze your flaws and want no one to see you the way you see yourself. You don’t realize that the people who compliment you see you for more than your flaws, they see you for everything that you don’t see. They see your worth. They compliment you because they see your beauty, even when you don’t.
There’s so many little things about you that are beautiful, you may not see them but others can. Just because you don’t look like a supermodel does not make you any less beautiful, there is something beautiful about everyone, sometimes there are many things and everyone but them can see it. You are so beautiful, no matter what you weigh, no matter what your hair color is, no matter how tall or short you are. You are beautiful. Choose to wake up everyday and find things about yourself that you like, it will be harder on some days, but hating yourself didn’t happen over night and neither will loving yourself but it will happen. The only person in this entire world like you, is you, don’t you see how precious you are.
Someday you will find that person who makes you feel beautiful in their eyes which will unknowingly give you the confidence to see your own beauty. You will mean the world to that person. Someday might not be as far away as you think. Someday could be today, someday could be tomorrow, someday could be in a few years. But someday will happen. In the future you will find that person who will love you unconditionally. You will find that person who loves everything you hate about yourself. That person will discover all the silly quirks you have and love you even more for them. That person who will make you realize that you don’t need the make up or the diets or the clothes to feel beautiful, they will make you see that all you need to be is yourself because to them you will be everything they’ve ever wanted. You will find your soul mate. They are out there and they can’t hide forever. That person you don’t know exists, is going to love you more than anything else in this world.
I’m not saying every day is going to be the best day of your life because it won’t. There will be hard times, a lot of them but they are nothing compared to the good times ahead that you have yet to experience. You still have so much life in you left to live don’t waste it being negative, don’t waste it counting calories, don’t waste it hurting yourself. Free yourself of your bad thoughts and learn to love yourself for the truly amazing person you are. You can overcome anything, you are stronger than you think. This is the only life you have. Enjoy it. Live it.
In commemoration of Suicide Prevention Week..
Dear You.. (An anti-suicide video)
On Friday afternoon, I got my first tattoo. It’s Latin- ‘Memento Vivere’. It means ‘Remember life’ or ‘Remember to live’. I think that sometimes, we get so caught up in whatever we’re doing or going through, that we really do forget to live. Every one of you on here is a living and breathing reminder of the strength of the human spirit- and the strength and beauty that comes with living. Thank-you for that.
So, if ever you’re having a rough day, or you don’t think you can take it anymore- just write this little reminder down somewhere.
'Remember life, Remember to live' because I deserve to live… and you do too.
I love you all <3 Stay Strong.
This is it. You’re not alone.
If you’re looking for someone to tell you to stay strong and not give in, this is it.
You’re not alone. You’re never alone.
There is always someone out there who cares about you.
Even if it is just a random person on the internet.
My heart breaks for you and I have so much love for you <3 If you weren’t here, I think my heart would shatter into a million tiny pieces.
I love you.. please stay strong.
Just take a deep breath.
Things will get better.
You CAN get through this.
You are strong, you are beautiful. you are worth it.
You’re not just a survivor
You’re a fighter.